WELCOME

hahaha. perasan btol me-welcome diri sendiri.

i joined moots again. one last time. let me justify this to console myself. the thing is i have been out for more than a year and for each and every competition i judged, i have this desire to jump out the seat and present my case.

I TASTED the anxiety of moot. the helplessness. the depression of facing all of it is so fresh that nothing in this world can erase the scar i had after that first one. AND yet with all that in mind i was willingly-forced into another competition. one last thing to cure my itch..

there is just something about moot. i hear people try to explain moot to attract more students to join yet it is unjustifiable and unattractive. a great mooter cannot persuade one to join if one do not want it in the first place. urgh i hate moots but i love it with such feeling (bipolar alert). hahaha

THERE IS NO REASONABLE REASON UNDER THE SUN for me to go through this again but one inexplicable desire that cannot be erased.

ONE CONSOLATION. tayan have always been there and will continue to be there with me and for me. every way :)