irony.

It is somehow weird if I say I like death. i mean not that I want to die, it is an irony actually. the event of death in a family. its not that I want someone to die, but somehow here is where we get to meet THE family. i have to admit I have a very large family. to the point that I may not know them if i saw them somewhere on the road. and because of the family 'politics' i have in my family, there are few of my cousins that we actually lost touch with.

I actually missed those times when we were small. playing here and there together. you just click with everyone. now..... we are like strangers. one of my cousins passed away early this morning. and today i get to meet my cousin for the first time after.... say.... 6 years or more??? somehow i feel it is not us that destroyed the bond. but its our parents fault. hahaha... (of course. who else to blame?)

going through the photo albums, i wish that things are still the same. i wouldnt want my children to end up marrying their own cousins at the end of the day though.

kucing

this is a continuance about subject of cats or pets. i am btw very flexible. i love cats.. simply lurv love luv CATS! hahaha... but im allergic. for some reason. and if society werent so judgmental, i'll cuddle a dog in a heartbeat..

That is not my point. my highlight is on animal cruelty. have you ever watched a cat being kicked and hurt just just for begging for a piece of your food? have you been guilty of giving those hurtful blows? im not trying to tell you it is completely mandatory for you to give them food. i have ignored this pleading looks when im having dinner. but i will not stoop so low so as to hurt them. he's not bothering you. just your conscience (if you own one). if a cat has its boundaries i.e. he's not jumping onto the table to steal your food, you should know your boundary. have a bit of humanity. being kind to animals make you more human. its logic. you are after all 5 times its' size.

I lost my dog to human cruelty and the malay stigma. he came home one day limping and bleeding at the end of his life. coming back to us after being stoned by stupid malays. how do you justify that?

POINTS TO PONDER.

Since nama blog ni pon is based on kucing, maka tak sah la kalau tak de post on cats. So now, I would like to elaborate WHY people emphasized that you should be a responsible owner to your cat(s) or pet(s) in general, especially cats and dogs.

FIRST, think over and over again before having a pet. ask yourself whether you REALLY want to have them and willing to sacrifice for your pet or you just wanted to have them because you are jealous that your neighbour have a lots of cats and they carry it around while you have to just look and be jealous. the purpose of having pet is not showing off. it is for you to handle and practice your responsibility because honestly, it is not that easy. put in mind that you are actually handling another living creatures' life. and it is your responsibility whether that animal will be happy and healthy.

SECOND, you would want to make sure that you have everything that your pet needs. food, water, litter tray, love, clean environment and so on. AND you would also want to make sure that you DO NOT by having pets at home disturb your neighbours in ANY way. "disturb" can be defined in many ways. one of them is disturb-ing through SMELL. make sure you clean the litter tray daily or when it is necessary. this is IMPORTANT not only for the comfort of your pet or cat, but it is also for the comfort of your neighbours. jangan jadi macam jiran sebelah rumah aku. letak sankar kucing kat depan and tak bersihkan litter tray, everytime aku nak masuk rumah, bau die.... fuh. macam ade bangkai. I actually have to peep to make sure that tak de kucing mati without them realising it.

THIRD, another IMPORTANT reason you should be responsible is because you could lead to the enormous number of stray animals. if you are blessed with a female cat or dog, and you think you wouldnt want or cannot afford to have the babies, make sure you take the necessary precautions such as neuter or just keep them indoors to prevent or males from 'attacking' her. Let me tell you why this is important. once you FAILED to do that and your cat or dog got pregnant and have babies, you would start finding people to give them away. then, your friends, (im talking about kids who wanted to have pet, and the parents being too busy working just go and buy it and leave the animal to you solely and doesnt give a damn care about the animal) came and said: 'oh, I want this one. no, no I want this one' (whatever), your friends then keep the pet. then, what happened is that your friends, are the sort like you, tak reti jaga, then they got pregnant pulak. then, they'll start asking their OTHER friends.

the point is, in the end, because of your irresponsibility towards your pet, more and more of them are born and finally the last resort is to just dumped them somewhere or anywhere. it is somehow weird when the organisations such as SPCA and PAWS tried their best to save the animals but it is never ending because of ONE owner who DONT KNOW how to be responsible.

therefore, do take care of your pet properly. we wouldnt want to see stray here and there being abuse by stupid people who doesnt have pity towards helpless animals. I am not asking you to buy eaukanuba or royal canin for the strays, just treat them nicely. not by sticking a stick thru their throat. you wouldnt want me to do that to you dont you? of course you think it is impossible for me to do that because the police will come after me. but dont you think that your GOD will come after you LATER when you do that towards animals???


THINK ABOUT IT.

WELCOME

hahaha. perasan btol me-welcome diri sendiri.

i joined moots again. one last time. let me justify this to console myself. the thing is i have been out for more than a year and for each and every competition i judged, i have this desire to jump out the seat and present my case.

I TASTED the anxiety of moot. the helplessness. the depression of facing all of it is so fresh that nothing in this world can erase the scar i had after that first one. AND yet with all that in mind i was willingly-forced into another competition. one last thing to cure my itch..

there is just something about moot. i hear people try to explain moot to attract more students to join yet it is unjustifiable and unattractive. a great mooter cannot persuade one to join if one do not want it in the first place. urgh i hate moots but i love it with such feeling (bipolar alert). hahaha

THERE IS NO REASONABLE REASON UNDER THE SUN for me to go through this again but one inexplicable desire that cannot be erased.

ONE CONSOLATION. tayan have always been there and will continue to be there with me and for me. every way :)

party... party?? party..... haih....

So.... another invitation. what should i respond?? last year's event was definitely way beyond imagination. that was the end of everything that can happened. we are supposed to be one of the 'important' people. well.... of course. but because we are the ones doing everything. of course we are important. without us there wont be the party...

i dont know whether i want to go for this year's party. afraid i will be dissapointed again... of course i wouldnt want to repeat the same thing twice. going over the misery of being left like a weirdo and people making fun of you... therefore.... i shall think about it DEEPLY. no worries... the party will still be fun without me.. i am not that important tho.

bila anak melayu terlebih kreatif.

Kenapa bile raya puasa mesti ade orang hilang jari, mata or kepala sebab mercun? kenapa raya cina or deepavali tak de?

inilah yang terjadi bile kite terlebih kreatif. orang lain raya jugak. main mercun jugak. lagi la pakai mercun hari merdeka. tak de pon kes melecur sana sini. kenapa bile bab mercun ramai je kreatif tapi bila suruh buat peta minda sume blur. (peta minda?? ape tu. haha..)

masalah nye bukan mercun seludup tu yang defect. otak kanak kanak yang defect. kat mercun tu sendiri dah tulis jangan hala kat orang. tak.... die nak jugak hala kat orang. dah cakap jangan letak tempat bukan bukan... TAAAKKK.... nak jugak letak dalam ekzos la, botol plastik la.. pastu bile meletup terkena serpih sape susah? mak ayah jugak susah. kena bayar bil hospital. diri sendiri jugak susah... tak leh beraya cukup sifat... heh...

arakian itu ingin saya nasihatkan supaya main lah mercun dengan bertanggungjawab untuk kesejahteraan sume pihak. time nak raya ambulans sibuk sebab banyak accident. jangan nanti ambulans lambat sampai mata buta salahkan kerajaan. salahkan diri sendiri yang tak tahu jaga perilaku anak dan juga anak tu salahkan la diri sendiri bebal sangat otak tu. PADAN MUKA.

jiran saye yang HARAM.

Pagi jalan kaki pegi sekolah. lepas perhimpunan lompat pagar hisap rokok. lepas tu naik motor ramai ramai merempit. bile mak bapak da pegi keje balik rumah berkumpul depan rumah, test asap motor. menjerit sana sini. puntung rokok bersepah campak kat rumah orang. malam kumpul lagi. mak bapak balik tengah malam hon suruh orang gaji bukak pintu. bawak mercedes. anak hisap rokok depan rumah..... LANTAK KAU LA.

cuba teka berapa umur budak tu? duduk kat mana??

budak tu tingkatan..... ntah 1 ke 3???
dan mereka bukan duduk di squatters haram. mereka duduk di kawasan perumahan yang penuh dengan orang tua yang civilized. dan mereka MENCACATKAN keharmonian rukun tetangga kawasan perumahan itu.

hahaha... sound sangat 'lame'. but yet here they are. after 5 years??? same old attitude they bring from wherever they were. tak considerate langsung. perangai macam fuck. the whole neighbourhood complain. if only boleh halau orang sesuka hati memang aku da halau. budget bawak mercedes company. tak kan tak de duit nak duplicate kunci? kau duduk kat hutan ke takde kedai 'bikin kunci'?? ni balik tengah malam hon macam orang gile. orang lain nak tido pon tak senang. tak pon mesej la anak tu. telepon ke. sekor sekor telepon bergantung kat leher. REMPIT la katekan. tapi tak reti bapak tu nak suruh bukak pagar. WTF.

sumpah annoyed. kalau boleh bile da grad and keje.... kau tunggu la aku amek tindakan mahkamah kerana menggangu ketenteraman awam. this is not a trivial matter. LIMA TAHUN aku emotionally stress. aku tak mintak damages beribu ribu. cukup injuction untuk halau kau keluar duduk jauh daripada aku.