Unlucky

I am at a point where LIFE just refuse to move. I have for the past 4 weeks spend my time reliving each joyful moment that has occurred during my final semester.

And while writing this i have a big lump on my throat. I MISS MY LIFE. and most of all i miss TAYAN. i miss the simple everyday life where everything was so sure and i am safely in my room reading a book while tayan is on her computer beating my butt in plants vs zombies.

THAT was my life. It may not seem like much but to me it meant everything. the stability, security and the best friendship.

fast forward to the now --->

I have nothing on the line. I'm not waiting for something definite to begin. There is no future date where something begins for me. This is not a holiday. This is LIFE ON HOLD. and i am not liking it.

BUT. i digress. The point of this post is basically to tell people the obvious FACT OF LIFE. some people are born under a lucky star that no matter how much you surpass them in academic excellence, they are the ones who has LIFE FIGURED OUT.

FOR some bloody reason i don't have interviews line up all this week when i damn sure should have.. No one is knocking on my door, falling over each other to get to me...

NO.. i wasn't born under the same damn star...

THEY have something definite to go to. THEY don't have life on hold. In actual fact THEY have moved on while I twiddle with my thumb looking at my own future placed in my palm without a clue of where i'm going...

damn..