A shifa

That's not her name. But i guess it is fitting. She is my cure for all the bad things that could happen and have happened before.

I have bad days. Bad episodes of self esteem where i feel like such a failure. But then i am always lucky enough to come back to a friend who made me see i can be everything i want to be. When things are so far down that I fear there is no room for me to ever feel good she will just be there.. Just there.. she will hug me and make me feel safe.

Safe... the freedom of just being safe is so enormous. I feel safe in her presence. Invincible. Humbled by the fact that this girl is willing to protect me unconditionally.

My shifa protects me even from physical pain. She misses classes nursing me to health.. undergo sleepless nights ensuring i wasn't affected by the medicine that gives me nightmares. No one waited on me like that. No one cared enough.

There was a time when a conflict occur that was so big a scale that it cost us friendships. I was scared to go to class. Scared of the consequences. Scared of the possibility of being an outcast. And she gave me all the support that she could. She chose me. I was going to war with only one person in my camp. But then when that person is my shifa, i won that war. It was only later upon reflection i realized that she was scared too, for me and herself. But unlike me, she was unselfish in allowing me to be weak. She had to be strong for the both of us. and that strength carried us through.

Over the years, she was my guide. She's brutally honest and a relentless life coach. I had to learn to never take shortcuts, never to trust fully, never give when youre being screwed. She made me open my eyes. Life is not ideal. if it was it would be my own private world where unicorns were the fastest way to travel.

She is my sister... no matter what DNA tells me...

Dear tayan, the reason i cast a wish when an eyelash falls is that the practice awarded me your friendship..

And i remember the moment i knew we were gold was when having encountered a very emotional stressful day with lots of crying, you sent ONE message and made me smile. Made me smile. When the world around us was crashing down....

I owe you my life. Or we owe each other but not really. haha.. i am a better person. i am a better friend.. and you were the reason..

HKNUDXNT