Let the games begin

So lately ni.. di sekitar Shah Alam aku akan nampak ini:

Ops.. Ha.. yang last one tuh tak la. BTW. kenapa nak bakar2 pulak ni?? kau duit mmg tak reti nak hargai eh? Kau ingat kau bakar tu ade symbolize anything ke. "Every small thing you do. Let it matter." and this action was pointless...

Anyway. As i was saying. Bendera2 yang digantung tak cukup meriah untuk aku fikir "Dah election ke? Aku miss announcement???"... Tapi of course mencurigakan. kenapa tiba2 penuh bendera barisan nasional (hahaha.. aku selalu tersasul sebut ni bendera umno)...

So obviously ini hanya misteri yang aku takkan solve pon because aku bukan seorang detective sekolah menengah...

Kalau kau tak tau siapa dia, childhood/adulthood kau sgt tak fulfilling. It's not as good as reading straight from a comic book BUT you have to try sample the online manga. It's different because it is in english. The comic is of course alih bahasa ke BM. So once you're hook, purchase the comic for your reading pleasure.

*on a sidenote, even with the existence of e-book, i would forever choose to read the proper book. that is until mother earth absolutely can't take anymore destruction of its trees. sigh~*

AGAIN. aku dah miss my point. So anyway. No.. Tak de jawapan dalam post ini KENAPA bendera BN merata tempat di dalam shah alam ni. But i am making an educated deduction that probably election dah dekat and nak get ahead of the competition. Like ha gantung semua2.. biar orang dah nampak dan imprint dalam otak logo bendera tuh. then announce date and wait for the others untuk terhegeh2 gantung... I have nothing against that. You have to play by your advantage kan.. hahaha

SO... dengan deduksi aku sendiri.. ELECTION DAH DEKAT!! mwahahahahahahahahaha!!!!! akhirnya akan diperguna juga identiti aku sebagai seorang pengundi yang sudah 3 tahun menunggu untuk dipergunakan.

For now... Obviously those that knows me best knows which side of the fence i am on. But i am determined to choose not the party but the people.... so sway me politicians. Let's hear you out.

Let the games begin...

When it rains, it pours

I have always had a crush on the guy. But not a huge crush yang sampai menangis air mata berdarah seperti ini:

Haha.. emo-tikus sangat gambar ni. ade lagi few freaky pictures. Type je air mata berdarah kat google. or ini link die (ini untuk menepati janji to have more pix ;p)

ANYWAY. so takde air mata berdarah kat sini ok? Cuma crush. Because aku sgt senang nak crush dengan orang. Imagine my surprise when the crush goes out with a close friend. Currently dating. He is a decent guy. I might be happy for the said friend. I might. BUT i am a bit confuse of where things are heading. I DON'T CARE. except of course i have a vested interest... or not. maybe i don't. I don't know. Have it or not. I am interested (although i previously said I don't care. Urgh somebody stop me)..

So. This is a decent guy. Who i had a mild crush on since 2nd year. Who is now dating my close friend.

I don't mind. This is a mild crush remember? Except.... why am i trying to convince myself still?

And i don't even know if said friend reads my blog. If you are... Chill out.. It's just me. I won't steal him away... It's just a mild crush (yup should stop saying that huh?) haha

Constantly Consistent

Hahahaha. Lawak sangat statement ni. Because aku rasa.... Aku sangat bersemangat buat something tapi aku lack execution. Macam contohnya BLOG ni. Aku SANGAT SUKA menulis. Tak tipu. Aku boleh tulis panjang-panjang kat kertas. Dalam otak apa la yang nak letak kat dalam blog yang papa kedana ni. But then banyak sangat benda2 yang menghalang. Ini adalah list kenapa aku malas blogging walaupun aku wish aku tak sangat:

1. Kena TYPE apa yang aku fikir

Solution: Order seorang typist yang suka menaip untuk kerja. Seeloknya orang yang tgh practical so die tak charge tinggi or charge langsung (haha aku hina)

2. Kena BUKAK komputer. Kau tau tak ini masalah besar. Untuk converse energy (haha. aku tgh dengar bestfriend aku mengutuk statement menipu ini) kite perlu tutup ALL electrical appliances.. So sah2 la si laptop ini bukan terbuka untuk convenience aku terus mencurah idea2 yang mungkin bernas atau tak bernas. But you would never know because....AKU TAK BLOG ABOUT IT.

Solution: Hmmm... write it down on a piece of paper then ikut step 1. Wah!

3. Aku dan INTERNET... Ade love hate relationship. AKU SAYANG INTERNET. GILE KALAU TAKDE LEXIS / CLJ!!!!!!!!!!! Akan tetapi. Die useful untuk kerja. And untuk leisure aku sangat prefer untuk maybe hiburkan hati aku dengan failbook atau menengok gambar2 menarik di bored panda yang honestly aku boleh habiskan like ONE WHOLE DAY. Wait.. aku dah miss point aku. OH! ha... so aku dan internet mmg slow sikit. Because blog bagi aku adalah satu social thing maka aku MALAS.... Kau tau tak betapa aku proof read what i say before i post it? hahaha. Even THIS post yang nampak sangat simple.

Solution: Paksa bestfriend aku lebih banyak menulis pasal die lebih aktif berinternet dan gigih dari aku...

4. Ha dan finally. ni yang paling nyata... Solution2 di atas ni hanyalah satu distraction of the core issue. Aku nak lebih rajin menulis. So the point is simple is to start writing. I had this huge writer's block for almost ALL my life. And when i mean BLOCK i mean i write occasionally and sometimes i score. But then I am not AJ (Maybe that's why i am deep down a little bit jealous of her). I could not produce a piece every single time i fire up my computer. So This is me overcoming that. Apa yang aku try nak achieve from today onwards adalah: Write more and try to write more casually....

P/S: aku sedar mungkin aku takde readers. siapa baca dormant blog? tapi maybe overtime. Dengan usaha akan ade hasil. hahaha.. worse come to worse ini jadi diary aku. senang cerita. Oh... and maybe tambah pics u know... lagi ceria blog ini. haha..

The Appeal by John Grisham

So I bought the above book at a second hand stall in AmCorp for RM10.

Let me tell you about John Grisham and my love-hate relationship with his books... I LOVE the idea behind his stories. The conspiracy theories, the drama of it all. But in my humble opinion, as an avid 'bookaholic' (yes, it's a real term), his writings lack execution. He fails time and time again to clinch a winner at the best possible point of his books. At one point, I gave up reading John Grisham. This was after "The Runaway Jury". So you might say I don't like John Grisham's novels. And I STILL maintain that I don't. (because truly, he disappoints so many time)

However, "The Appeal" comes along. This is not a new book. Of course not. It has been around for years. I only just picked it up this year. I have to say... This book DID NOT BLOW MY MIND. It gave me so much more than that. It was accurate and real. The execution was flawless. And I ended the book almost hoping he would give me what he always gave in his other books. A happy ending and the bad boys lose. But that's not real. So he gave the book what it NEEDED and not what it SHOULD have... I am told from my reading of reviews that instead of gushing about the book (which I am unabashedly doing right now), I should give the idea of what the book is about.

Here is a simple synopsis. The book opens with a surprising judgment for the Plaintif against a big corporation (think Erin Brokovich) who was found guilty of polluting the water of a small town causing the death of the Plaintiff's husband and child and creating a cancerous town. The damages awarded are huge. But now the trial is over, the appeal looms ahead. The book follows two stories. One of the struggle of the lawyers who risked everything to fight for the Plaintiff and their continous effort and struggle to maintain the verdict on appeal. And the other of the machine of the corporation fighting to win the appeal at all costs to avoid a floodgate of tort claims against the corporation including manipulating the seats of the supreme court to obtain a judgment in their favour.

It was worth it. The risk of buying another John Grisham. I still tasted the bitter after-taste of his previous books while making the purchase. But I was awarded in the end. Awesome read.

How do you measure gender??

How do you measure gender??

Dressing, ASSETS, the way you are? haha..

i was actually taken aback when one of my distant aunty actually asked me whether Im a boy or girl. straight to my face. hahaha..

I appreciate the SINCERITY. but seriously...

1) rambut aku tak berapa nak mcm jantan. or pengkid.. but i take it as a compliment la. rambut aku mcm anuar zain kan :P

2) aku tau la badan aku macam runway airport.. but again... hahahaha.. jgn la hina mcm tu sekali.

3) aku tau la muka aku tak berapa nak ayu or putih or licin.. aku just naturally malas nak jaga.

4) aku tau la badan aku hot kan. kurus dan berotot berbanding dgn yg lain bulat bulat belaka.

5) aku pakai seluar pendek. tapi at least bukan hotpants or baju melekat kat badan macam nak mintak rogol.

6) selipar aku tak mcm selipar pompuan. sebab slipar pompuan tak kental. kalau lari kena kejar anjing confirm putus.

So what is left for you to judge? afterall aku bukan mintak anak kau pinang aku. tak mintak pon nak jadi menantu kau. tak heran pon sebab bukan kau yg bagi aku makan. tak heran pon sebab bukan aku nak suap kau makan.

whatever it is. i appreciate and love myself. when everyone would die to have a body like mine. why should i bother about what people say. YANG PENTING AKU HAPPY :)

cheers :)

Politics

And now that i've started why stop eh?

OK.. I will vote.. I hate the government. HATE HATE HATE..

But hey. Look at it this way. I have my education. And most of my friends are educated people.. of all races.

I know the govt have been screwing with us so long. But now that we have a strong opposition maybe they will toe the line...

And giving credit where it's due. The country turned out fine so far. I mean there is A LOT that we need to be proud of. Suppression of freedom of speech? yes. I see that as a problem too. BUT to be fair, the voices against the govt are not TOTALLY stifled. And people have access to the information they need to make an informed decision.

I will be making an informed decision when voting. I will PROBABLY be slamming the govt sometime in my future posts. but hey.. that's why it's informed decision and not blind following.

And so far ambiga, the protest for having to notify 10 days in advance? not to mention the seksualiti merdeka (and defacing the word merdeka at that).. come on... there needs to be a line SOMEWHERE.

nukilan hati di malam hari... lagi..

Cheers

Been So Long

This is the journey so far. Me and my bestfriend are no longer roommates. This is the biggest challenge ever. Imagining not waking up AFTER your best friend has relented to use the shower before you. Just so you can get that extra 15 minutes of blissful sleep. That one person who you have lived the BEST days of your life. The passing time shoved me right into the real world and it isn't pretty.

I question my judgment everyday. I question my choice of career every time I'm working. And every single time memory beckons me to its arms. I will always relive the glorious blissful days that was with my bestfriend.

I wished every day that i had appreciated time more..

To all those who are lost and happen to be reading this.. if you're of school-going age and life suck at school it will not in uni. If you're in college and you THINK you're life suck in uni... PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE appreciate it. The grass is definitely GREENEST in your era. If you are working like me... God help us all.

Nukilan hati di malam hari.

Cheers