Some of the words are not the exact similar ones. But the true meaning that I care most.
Abah: dah makan blom?
Me: blom. Lepas exam nanti baru makan. Tadi tak sempat.
Abah: hujan tak kat sana?
Me: haah. Tapi hujan renyai je.
Abah: abes tu macam mana pegi exam?
Me: naik bas.
Abah: abes tu tak bawak payung ke?
Me: tak. Pegi naik bas, tak pakai payung.
Abah: abes tu hujan macam mana jalan nak pegi exam? (yes, he repeat the sentence)
Me: dah sampai dah kat hall, naik bas.
Abah: oh. Gelap ke situ?
Me: sah sah la. Malam. Tapi ade lampu jalan.
Abah: jangan jalan gelap gelap sorang-sorang. Nak pegi mane-mane ajak kawan suruh teman.
Me: ye. Ok. Tau. Tau.
Abah: pukul berape test?
Me: kul 8.30. dah nak start dah ni. Dah dalam hall pon.
Abah: oh. Ok. Ok. All the best. We always pray for you.
These are the last conversation I had with him I think. Yup. Maybe. Well, he gave his last words. Of course that is not what I have in mind when he called. What crossed my mind was, “yes. I know that already, why are you telling me things that I knew.” Silly me. I didn’t appreciate that last call much. Not until he’s gone. Now I’m craving to hear his voice, regardless what he’ll have to say. If only I can freeze that moment so that it will last forever. I still dialled his number sometimes. Just checking. Haha. Macam la die boleh angkat phonekan. There are a lot of regrets I had. We didn’t talk much. Perhaps once a week.
Haish. Tak pe la. It’s not meant to be. Pasrah and redha.
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Situasi
Dan bila kau menghilang
Musnah la, musnah impian
tuk menggapai bintang terangi hidup ku
Ku mahu kau tahu
engkaulah, destinasiku
dalam ingatanku ..
Important calls
Today for the first time I made it for my contract class. So I finally meet my lecturer. Unlike any other lecturers who will silent their phone when they entered the class to teach, she didn’t turn off the ringtone. She apologized to the class. She said, ‘I’m sorry but as I told you phone calls are important. You might lose your loved ones if you missed the phone call. That may be the last phone call you’ll ever get from them.’ At first I laughed as it sounds funny. But later, it actually rings a bell to me. And I end up dreaming for the next 40 minutes in class.
The reason is very simple. I missed ONE bloody phone call, and that’s the end of it. I can NEVER EVER hear his voice again. How devastating. And what she said is definitely right. You never know. Accidents happened. And it is not that I’m being paranoid. NO. I’m just scared the same thing will happen again.
The reason is very simple. I missed ONE bloody phone call, and that’s the end of it. I can NEVER EVER hear his voice again. How devastating. And what she said is definitely right. You never know. Accidents happened. And it is not that I’m being paranoid. NO. I’m just scared the same thing will happen again.
14/1/2009 11.40am
And when the path astray
And turn to a total destruction.
I’m left hanging
And hurt myself again.
You showed me love and turned away.
You give me life and took it away.
The road we take no longer the same.
And the intensity we shared now it changed.
Maybe this love will fade away,
Or will it last till the end of the day…
And turn to a total destruction.
I’m left hanging
And hurt myself again.
You showed me love and turned away.
You give me life and took it away.
The road we take no longer the same.
And the intensity we shared now it changed.
Maybe this love will fade away,
Or will it last till the end of the day…
For Mr. Suhaimi, 14/1/2009
I start to count the butterflies
Flying all around the sky.
I stop to rest on the ground
And admire the universe up high.
You keep talking in words I don’t understand
And make jokes like we are having fun.
But what you do is adding misery
My head hurts and I’m feeling dizzy.
I hope you stop your show now
And let me take the fresh air outside.
I need to get my feet back on track.
Before I see the black spots and faint.
Flying all around the sky.
I stop to rest on the ground
And admire the universe up high.
You keep talking in words I don’t understand
And make jokes like we are having fun.
But what you do is adding misery
My head hurts and I’m feeling dizzy.
I hope you stop your show now
And let me take the fresh air outside.
I need to get my feet back on track.
Before I see the black spots and faint.
16/2/2009 00:35
And when the time comes for you to finally surrender,
And turn yourself to a total stranger.
I'll be a distance away and watch you.
I'll hold the pain all to myself, and smile for you.
For I failed again in this stupid game.
For you left me and new love you gain.
As this is what I've been expecting.
As I know Im the one slacking.
And turn yourself to a total stranger.
I'll be a distance away and watch you.
I'll hold the pain all to myself, and smile for you.
For I failed again in this stupid game.
For you left me and new love you gain.
As this is what I've been expecting.
As I know Im the one slacking.
2/3/2009
There you are. I saw you standing in your blue shirt; smiling.
I came to you even thought I know you're not there.
I kiss your hand; I know why it's cold.
We said a few words and I left.
Then I finally realise how sad I am.
I came to you even thought I know you're not there.
I kiss your hand; I know why it's cold.
We said a few words and I left.
Then I finally realise how sad I am.
4/3/2009 klia
There's no more tears I have left
to let it out and show to you how much I've hurt
to put it aside and smile again.
As I'm not sure of the right destination,
the right place to go and the right time.
I'm here waiting patiently;
For the last goodbye to come and kill me.
to let it out and show to you how much I've hurt
to put it aside and smile again.
As I'm not sure of the right destination,
the right place to go and the right time.
I'm here waiting patiently;
For the last goodbye to come and kill me.
5/3/2009 mmc
It’s 3 am in the morning
I’m still here waiting.
Sitting alone by the roadside
Watching the planes passed me by.
It’s been a week since you left.
My heart is empty and full of crap.
Using all the strength I have;
To keep breathing and stay alive.
Time passed and never stops,
You’re still nowhere, unseen by me.
The roads are clear and the skies are bright.
And the cool wind shivers me.
Tears roll down my cheeks.
The pain of waiting strikes me
I hope you’ll finally turn up from that door
And give me the hug that I’ve been dying for…
I’m still here waiting.
Sitting alone by the roadside
Watching the planes passed me by.
It’s been a week since you left.
My heart is empty and full of crap.
Using all the strength I have;
To keep breathing and stay alive.
Time passed and never stops,
You’re still nowhere, unseen by me.
The roads are clear and the skies are bright.
And the cool wind shivers me.
Tears roll down my cheeks.
The pain of waiting strikes me
I hope you’ll finally turn up from that door
And give me the hug that I’ve been dying for…
8/4/09
Until now I wonder what do I really feel when I saw you at the hospital. I wonder where I get the strength to actually called my friends and tell them that you passed away. Haha~ they even thought that I was high or drunk calling them early in the morning and said you died. I wonder how I can act in such a way like nothing happened.
I remembered calling umi and said it’s really you and you’re gone. Damn! That very moment….. Like the time stopped. And wait for me to compute it was YOU. I guessed I’m a little late. If not maybe I’m able to see you at least on the bed instead of that damn freezer. How devastating life can get. The image is still very fresh and clear.
Maybe being tipsy did help me that day. Seriously, I’m amazed at myself that I still manage to stand on my feet after seeing you. I thought the world was dark at that time. What do I do?? How do I tell them?? How do we carry on with our life? What is going to happen next? What are we going to do?????
DAMN!
And now it’s your birthday. Haih…. I’m just afraid to face the upcoming days. Supposedly this Sunday is your 23rd anniversary with umi. I just don’t know what to imagine. Haish…….
I remembered calling umi and said it’s really you and you’re gone. Damn! That very moment….. Like the time stopped. And wait for me to compute it was YOU. I guessed I’m a little late. If not maybe I’m able to see you at least on the bed instead of that damn freezer. How devastating life can get. The image is still very fresh and clear.
Maybe being tipsy did help me that day. Seriously, I’m amazed at myself that I still manage to stand on my feet after seeing you. I thought the world was dark at that time. What do I do?? How do I tell them?? How do we carry on with our life? What is going to happen next? What are we going to do?????
DAMN!
And now it’s your birthday. Haih…. I’m just afraid to face the upcoming days. Supposedly this Sunday is your 23rd anniversary with umi. I just don’t know what to imagine. Haish…….
1/11/2008
It is called the circle of life.
One was born,
Another one died.
It is called the game of life.
One succeed,
Another one failed.
It is called life.
One life; taken,
Another soul; gone....
One was born,
Another one died.
It is called the game of life.
One succeed,
Another one failed.
It is called life.
One life; taken,
Another soul; gone....
There goes..............
Where do I get to run now. There's nothing clearer than seeing your name on that stone.
Haih...............................
7 April 1961-18 October 2008. You're only 47! And its only the 3rd week of raya...
Life is indeed short. You never know when is your turn. There goes all the dreams we used to say. There's goes all the work that we always do together. Fixing the roof and stuff, climbing here and there. There goes the future I planned. There goes evrything I had in mind for you........
Haih...............................
7 April 1961-18 October 2008. You're only 47! And its only the 3rd week of raya...
Life is indeed short. You never know when is your turn. There goes all the dreams we used to say. There's goes all the work that we always do together. Fixing the roof and stuff, climbing here and there. There goes the future I planned. There goes evrything I had in mind for you........
ping, ping, pong, pong.
Haih..................... mengisi masa lapang.
"Its not what you say, its what you do"
"Dont walk ahead of me, I may not follow you. Dont walk behind me, I may not lead you. Just walk beside me and be my friend"
"My brain shutdowns a lot without reason"
"I may not be someone special in your life, but you will always be someone special in my life"
"Its not what you say, its what you do"
"Dont walk ahead of me, I may not follow you. Dont walk behind me, I may not lead you. Just walk beside me and be my friend"
"My brain shutdowns a lot without reason"
"I may not be someone special in your life, but you will always be someone special in my life"
crash!
Here I am. In the room bersama seorang yang sedang patah hati. And it doesnt help me much as I have to listen to all the broken-hearted songs. Enough of it, months ago. Enough of it, years ago. Its done. I'm done. But these songs keep on bugging me and slowly dragging my emotions too. Yeah.... Now I'm also starting to feel the pain. All the pain that I've felt before. Its just the same everytime. Regardless who the person is or was for that matter. haha~
Breaking your heart is something that is painful but yet you'll always crave for more. You'll always come back and take the same route. You'll repeat your mistakes. In the name of love. Kononnye. Bullshit. In the end... you know you are the one carrying the pain. You are the one who is going to go through all the shits alone again. No one but you. And this time you have to face it alone. No more shoulder to lean on. No more gentle touch to soothes you. Its all gone. Dead and gone.
Then you'll AGAIN be left hanging. All the stupid questions that you will repeat over and over again to yourself. Whether the love still exist. Whether that person still cares for you. Whether you can survive without them. Thats just life.........
Breaking your heart is something that is painful but yet you'll always crave for more. You'll always come back and take the same route. You'll repeat your mistakes. In the name of love. Kononnye. Bullshit. In the end... you know you are the one carrying the pain. You are the one who is going to go through all the shits alone again. No one but you. And this time you have to face it alone. No more shoulder to lean on. No more gentle touch to soothes you. Its all gone. Dead and gone.
Then you'll AGAIN be left hanging. All the stupid questions that you will repeat over and over again to yourself. Whether the love still exist. Whether that person still cares for you. Whether you can survive without them. Thats just life.........
bunk-trash
Memandangkan saya terperap di sini(moot room) selama semalam.... maka saya akan membincangkan isu-isu secara randomnye. Pertamanye... adalah saya lapar. Disebabkan tadi masa makan di Kluang Station saya sakit perut, maka saya gagal menghabiskan makanan saya. Dan sekarang saya lapar. Haih. Begitulah hidup.
Keduanye, saya sengaja menulis di dalam bahasa melayu untuk menandingi nadiya, yang sesungguhnye bahasa melayu ini adalah bahasa kedua die. Agak impressive la... :P hahahaha~ jangan terasa(no offence) btol ke? haha.... hentamla. Saya orang kampung. Bahasa inggeris saya tak berapa sedap. hehe~
Ketiga! jari-jemari saya hampir beku. Agak susah jugak la nak taip sebenarnye. Tapi sebab saya bosan tahap muka nak kena tepek, saya gagahkan jua jari dan diri saya. haih.. sedihnye hidup. Tapi sebab saya suka sejuk maka saya tak akan membebel untuk ini. Saya akan meneruskan dengan isu-isu yang lebih relevan untuk manusia sejagat. Hee~
Haih..... Sebenarnye, saya seorang yang payah untuk difahami. Kadang-kadang saya bertindak mengikut emosi saya. Sebenarnye, kebanyakan masa saya adalah begitu. Hina saya tahu... Tapi nak buat macam mana. Haih. Saya sangat sayang kawan-kawan saya kerana saya tiada orang lain melainkan mereka dan juga ahli keluarga terdekat saya. Saya...... sayangla mereka. Tu pon nak tanye lagi ke. Heh. Haha~
Cuma kadang-kadang mereka ini barua sket. Saya pon barua jugak. Saya sedar, tapi kadang-kadang mereka barua sampai tahap yang saya nak sepak sekor-sekor, rasa macam nak belasah pon ade... Haih... Itula die. Mereka ni memang. Masing-masing dengan perangai masing-masing.... Heh. Tangan da nak kejang. Seriously. Maka akan berehat. Kalau ade idea, saya akan sambung lagi... So what?! I have the whole freakin night to do this pon. [Maka ape?! Saya ada satu malam untuk buat benda ni]. hahahahaha..
Keduanye, saya sengaja menulis di dalam bahasa melayu untuk menandingi nadiya, yang sesungguhnye bahasa melayu ini adalah bahasa kedua die. Agak impressive la... :P hahahaha~ jangan terasa(no offence) btol ke? haha.... hentamla. Saya orang kampung. Bahasa inggeris saya tak berapa sedap. hehe~
Ketiga! jari-jemari saya hampir beku. Agak susah jugak la nak taip sebenarnye. Tapi sebab saya bosan tahap muka nak kena tepek, saya gagahkan jua jari dan diri saya. haih.. sedihnye hidup. Tapi sebab saya suka sejuk maka saya tak akan membebel untuk ini. Saya akan meneruskan dengan isu-isu yang lebih relevan untuk manusia sejagat. Hee~
Haih..... Sebenarnye, saya seorang yang payah untuk difahami. Kadang-kadang saya bertindak mengikut emosi saya. Sebenarnye, kebanyakan masa saya adalah begitu. Hina saya tahu... Tapi nak buat macam mana. Haih. Saya sangat sayang kawan-kawan saya kerana saya tiada orang lain melainkan mereka dan juga ahli keluarga terdekat saya. Saya...... sayangla mereka. Tu pon nak tanye lagi ke. Heh. Haha~
Cuma kadang-kadang mereka ini barua sket. Saya pon barua jugak. Saya sedar, tapi kadang-kadang mereka barua sampai tahap yang saya nak sepak sekor-sekor, rasa macam nak belasah pon ade... Haih... Itula die. Mereka ni memang. Masing-masing dengan perangai masing-masing.... Heh. Tangan da nak kejang. Seriously. Maka akan berehat. Kalau ade idea, saya akan sambung lagi... So what?! I have the whole freakin night to do this pon. [Maka ape?! Saya ada satu malam untuk buat benda ni]. hahahahaha..
bang!
Moving on,
pentagon paper,
discriminates,
the weak,
lower down
the veil.
Follow your speech,
that sounds familiar,
move on,
where you stop.
It wont harm,
You are an agent.
-moot room: the words I joined randomly when they were submitting few months ago. Surprisingly, today, 18/5/09, I found them on the floor in the moot room. It broke my heart. But nampak sangat orang tak kemas moot room, and moot room ni kotor! heh.
pentagon paper,
discriminates,
the weak,
lower down
the veil.
Follow your speech,
that sounds familiar,
move on,
where you stop.
It wont harm,
You are an agent.
-moot room: the words I joined randomly when they were submitting few months ago. Surprisingly, today, 18/5/09, I found them on the floor in the moot room. It broke my heart. But nampak sangat orang tak kemas moot room, and moot room ni kotor! heh.
bing bang
this is the story that have been told.
people have been asking why their friend is no longer happy.
she doesnt talk much and hardly laugh.
when that is what she used to do much.
they started asking to figure out her problem.
but as before she wouldnt want to say anything.
she keeps on denying and change the topic.
her normal reaction is just a normal smile and the word 'nothing'.
some told her she has changed.
she is no longer the person they used to know.
she wonder what makes them say that.
because she thought she is still the same friend they would know.
one day she came to her senses.
she realised what people has been saying is true.
she is slowly changing to a stranger she dont know.
and no longer the same friend she thought she was.
since then she spend everyday thinking.
what could be the problem and the cure for it.
she turn to the sky and feel the emptiness inside.
and now she understands, she lost her soul.
people have been asking why their friend is no longer happy.
she doesnt talk much and hardly laugh.
when that is what she used to do much.
they started asking to figure out her problem.
but as before she wouldnt want to say anything.
she keeps on denying and change the topic.
her normal reaction is just a normal smile and the word 'nothing'.
some told her she has changed.
she is no longer the person they used to know.
she wonder what makes them say that.
because she thought she is still the same friend they would know.
one day she came to her senses.
she realised what people has been saying is true.
she is slowly changing to a stranger she dont know.
and no longer the same friend she thought she was.
since then she spend everyday thinking.
what could be the problem and the cure for it.
she turn to the sky and feel the emptiness inside.
and now she understands, she lost her soul.
hentak karang baru tau!
Dear friend,
I know things are not how we want them to be lately. I dont know why and I am very sorry for that. So the least I can do is write this out and leave something for you in case I wont be around soon. I hope this doesnt sound boring. Haih... So here goes....
I know there are times when I didnt help much when you actually need them. Sometimes I dissapear without letting you know. I failed to hear when you talk. I'm not sensitive enough to know when you're sad. I didnt manage to give good advice when you really need them. I cant fully agree on your choice. The rejection and all other stuff...
Im sorry for that... I know its my fault.
Tetapi....
Remember that I cant stop you from making your own choices. I know 'in love' makes you feel like you're on top of the world. I wont deny that coz I've been thru that part of my life. However, Im here to remind you that things are not what we want them to be most of the time. Dont make your partner your life centre. One simple reason if when you lose them, you'll also lose your life and it'll take a while to actually move on after that. No kidding.
I cant guarantee you that you'll end up with the person you are with now. What I can say is be prepared for anything to come and just make sure you can still hold on and be yourself. It is normal to break your heart in relationships. But in time it will heal. Well, I hope. Just be sure that he is the right guy for you. Just dont be too infatuated and start making wrong decisions.
Bak kate stacie orrico: there's gotta be more to life. Haha~ there's got to be more than just him. Im sure when the time is right, you'll be with who you deserve. We got long way to go. As much as Im dying to have a guy in my life now, but I know this isnt the right time yet. Im too young to make such a big decision. I'll just reserve all those pain when Im older. For now just enjoy every moment of being single and move around without restrictions. Except from your parents of course. Hee~
So friend,
whatever you feel like doing or whoever your choice is. Make sure you think about it carefully. I'll be here if you need me, but I cant fix your broken heart for you. I can just listen and give stupid advice like I always do. Not more than that I know. Just remember whatever it is, hidup mesti diteruskan. You cannot stop and breakdown and expect the world to wait for you. I can and will wait. But time just wont stop. Be sure to heal quickly and move on to look for other things.
It is painful to just see you in pain. There's no need to even wait until you cry. If only I have the power to stop you. If only I can show you someone better. But I CANT. POWERLESS. To see you hurt each and everyday for someone..... I really feel like smashing his head. Tapi tak bleh la kan. Heh. Haih. Ape ape pon............. begitulah.... haih.
I know things are not how we want them to be lately. I dont know why and I am very sorry for that. So the least I can do is write this out and leave something for you in case I wont be around soon. I hope this doesnt sound boring. Haih... So here goes....
I know there are times when I didnt help much when you actually need them. Sometimes I dissapear without letting you know. I failed to hear when you talk. I'm not sensitive enough to know when you're sad. I didnt manage to give good advice when you really need them. I cant fully agree on your choice. The rejection and all other stuff...
Im sorry for that... I know its my fault.
Tetapi....
Remember that I cant stop you from making your own choices. I know 'in love' makes you feel like you're on top of the world. I wont deny that coz I've been thru that part of my life. However, Im here to remind you that things are not what we want them to be most of the time. Dont make your partner your life centre. One simple reason if when you lose them, you'll also lose your life and it'll take a while to actually move on after that. No kidding.
I cant guarantee you that you'll end up with the person you are with now. What I can say is be prepared for anything to come and just make sure you can still hold on and be yourself. It is normal to break your heart in relationships. But in time it will heal. Well, I hope. Just be sure that he is the right guy for you. Just dont be too infatuated and start making wrong decisions.
Bak kate stacie orrico: there's gotta be more to life. Haha~ there's got to be more than just him. Im sure when the time is right, you'll be with who you deserve. We got long way to go. As much as Im dying to have a guy in my life now, but I know this isnt the right time yet. Im too young to make such a big decision. I'll just reserve all those pain when Im older. For now just enjoy every moment of being single and move around without restrictions. Except from your parents of course. Hee~
So friend,
whatever you feel like doing or whoever your choice is. Make sure you think about it carefully. I'll be here if you need me, but I cant fix your broken heart for you. I can just listen and give stupid advice like I always do. Not more than that I know. Just remember whatever it is, hidup mesti diteruskan. You cannot stop and breakdown and expect the world to wait for you. I can and will wait. But time just wont stop. Be sure to heal quickly and move on to look for other things.
It is painful to just see you in pain. There's no need to even wait until you cry. If only I have the power to stop you. If only I can show you someone better. But I CANT. POWERLESS. To see you hurt each and everyday for someone..... I really feel like smashing his head. Tapi tak bleh la kan. Heh. Haih. Ape ape pon............. begitulah.... haih.
MY LIFE. YOUR CHOICE.
this is never what i wanted. i know what i want. but i never had the chance to do it my way. i remember when after spm when people busy choosing what U to enter and I specifically hope not to be here. my friend once said: " sekali dapat ..."
and i replied 'reflextively' dengan pantas nye: "memang tak aa kan!" it fine i didnt get to join the army or piloting or engineering. but please at least a place i like. eventually i happened to be here anyways.... not my choice at all but here i am. they decide it for me and i am left with no choice.
DREADFULLY.... i enter. i remember crying the first day during registration. WTH. tepi rumah je kot. I dont know. maybe because thats the end of my dreams. i now have to change. not only taking the things that i dont even think i'll be taking. but then the pressure of taking arabic was so great. my fault. im not the type that will reject right on their face. i spend TWO years in matrix. for arabic. when in the end im not even taking syariah. but its fine. at least extra language.
now im going to enter my third year when thinking of dropping out is totally absurd. i used to look to the brighter side: "alaa.... at least you can take aviation law later on and master it"... but i realised... i dont like reading and learning things that way. i want to do it practically. i want to feel things on my hand. not stuff them in my brain. i cant really remember things anyway. sangat tak faham concept exams when i forget everything the moment i stepped out from the exam hall. i feel like im wasting my time FIVE years doing nothing.
'kak long' pernah cakap:" ape guna jadi lilin menerangi orang lain when kite sendiri terbakar". that is so true. what is the point of satisfying others when YOU the one who is caring the burden is hurting. but i know theres nothing i can do to change my world. the ball is not in my hand. maka...... now i am left alone hurt when i saw other people is finally now a pilot. when i am here... right here now, stuck with the most BORING thing in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD for another few years until i can start with something else.
AND I NEVER LIKED IT HERE. AND NEVER WILL.
and i replied 'reflextively' dengan pantas nye: "memang tak aa kan!" it fine i didnt get to join the army or piloting or engineering. but please at least a place i like. eventually i happened to be here anyways.... not my choice at all but here i am. they decide it for me and i am left with no choice.
DREADFULLY.... i enter. i remember crying the first day during registration. WTH. tepi rumah je kot. I dont know. maybe because thats the end of my dreams. i now have to change. not only taking the things that i dont even think i'll be taking. but then the pressure of taking arabic was so great. my fault. im not the type that will reject right on their face. i spend TWO years in matrix. for arabic. when in the end im not even taking syariah. but its fine. at least extra language.
now im going to enter my third year when thinking of dropping out is totally absurd. i used to look to the brighter side: "alaa.... at least you can take aviation law later on and master it"... but i realised... i dont like reading and learning things that way. i want to do it practically. i want to feel things on my hand. not stuff them in my brain. i cant really remember things anyway. sangat tak faham concept exams when i forget everything the moment i stepped out from the exam hall. i feel like im wasting my time FIVE years doing nothing.
'kak long' pernah cakap:" ape guna jadi lilin menerangi orang lain when kite sendiri terbakar". that is so true. what is the point of satisfying others when YOU the one who is caring the burden is hurting. but i know theres nothing i can do to change my world. the ball is not in my hand. maka...... now i am left alone hurt when i saw other people is finally now a pilot. when i am here... right here now, stuck with the most BORING thing in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD for another few years until i can start with something else.
AND I NEVER LIKED IT HERE. AND NEVER WILL.
GTH
Finally after quite some time... browsing thru the blogs... and I wonder. Why is it when you post something sad or sound sad and down, your friends will comment and ask you 'whats wrong' or finally ask ' how are you? are you ok?' hahaha...
pelik....
why now? why not when I need you. why not check on whenever. but why now when i finally manage to put it in words and post it that you finally care to read and wonder how was i doing?
sometimes friends are just so full of themselves. when they meet you: 'hi, hey did you hear what happened last weekend, what happened at someones' birthday party, oh... this boy asked me out, thay boy give me that. I fight with my boyfriend, im under pressure. I have a lot of work to do............... blablablabla.................. and the list goes on until half and hour when they're done talking: 'how are you? ape cerite?'................... 5 minutes of your story, either one of us have to leave, or we finally reach the destination.
they never listen. do i exist to just hear you talk? do i exist just to solve your problem? well.. i dont think so. and do you think i write a post for you to read and comment?? i also dont think so. the post is to share. not a place for you to know my condition. if you really care enough, you would have call me once you read 'that' post. not comment it there and wait a few weeks later when im dead to actually reply you.
bare that in mind. as much as you dont need me... i dont need you too...
pelik....
why now? why not when I need you. why not check on whenever. but why now when i finally manage to put it in words and post it that you finally care to read and wonder how was i doing?
sometimes friends are just so full of themselves. when they meet you: 'hi, hey did you hear what happened last weekend, what happened at someones' birthday party, oh... this boy asked me out, thay boy give me that. I fight with my boyfriend, im under pressure. I have a lot of work to do............... blablablabla.................. and the list goes on until half and hour when they're done talking: 'how are you? ape cerite?'................... 5 minutes of your story, either one of us have to leave, or we finally reach the destination.
they never listen. do i exist to just hear you talk? do i exist just to solve your problem? well.. i dont think so. and do you think i write a post for you to read and comment?? i also dont think so. the post is to share. not a place for you to know my condition. if you really care enough, you would have call me once you read 'that' post. not comment it there and wait a few weeks later when im dead to actually reply you.
bare that in mind. as much as you dont need me... i dont need you too...
The power is in your hands :P
I've always been a sucker when it comes to boys. You may not know this tapi I can fall for boys easily. As easy as 1,2,3. Hahaha.. ape tu. tak relevan. tak pe. abaikan. Haih.. the point yang cuba disampaikan di sini adalah why I am still macam ni. Macam ni as in why Im not with anyone much as I really want to. Haih..
Let me put this generally... Haih. Susahnye.. I've met lots of people throughout my entire life. Sah sah la there's also the heartbreak kan. Then I come to a conclusion that whatever happens, I am the one responsible. Not them. Not him or her. I cannot blame them for making me fall for them. It is not their fault. It is on my own capacity and awareness that I put myself so low and hurt myself over and over again for them. Now I'm all numb.
If I say that I'm not going to fall for you, then I'm not. No matter how much I actually want to. Even if I'm dying to be with you. But if I think that we cannot go (hahaha..pure pasar) then thats it. I will not let myself be the stupid girl giving her love when I got nothing in return. OR maybe I have not found my love yet until I cn afford to control who to like or not. Haih. My love better be good coz Im not choosing you man. You are the one who will choose me. Hahahaha...
Haih. The point is.... Maaflah. berkias pulak. haha.. ha! the point is... the power is in your hands. Pilihlah Celcom.... Tak. Ni pon salah. ha... maka the power is in your hands. You hold the key to your own happiness.. Dont fall for boys just because you want to or you have to. You will found one yourself. Its there. I think what I do best is leave and move on. Nobody can change you except yourself.
The part of my life with ****** is the worst I think. But nothing better than moving on and finally see that their life is a total mess while you are now happy being alone... What I can say that my life before was a mistake. I fall for people just because I allow myself and just because I wanted someone. But that doesnt work. In the end you are carrying the pain. Theres no point. My endless list of scandals.... I think I can erase that already. They are nothing except stupid mistake. What happened to them now?? hahaha... none of them are useful. They lead their own lives like they always do. Selfish. Heh...
Maka dont let yourself fall for something uncertain. Long way to go. And you better keep things interesting between you guys if you are together now because you got more to come. Nanti nak kahwin lagi... I will definitely wait until da graduate to have someone then kahwin terus. Sebab Im afraid I got bored of them. Hahaha.. keji aku tau.....
Let me put this generally... Haih. Susahnye.. I've met lots of people throughout my entire life. Sah sah la there's also the heartbreak kan. Then I come to a conclusion that whatever happens, I am the one responsible. Not them. Not him or her. I cannot blame them for making me fall for them. It is not their fault. It is on my own capacity and awareness that I put myself so low and hurt myself over and over again for them. Now I'm all numb.
If I say that I'm not going to fall for you, then I'm not. No matter how much I actually want to. Even if I'm dying to be with you. But if I think that we cannot go (hahaha..pure pasar) then thats it. I will not let myself be the stupid girl giving her love when I got nothing in return. OR maybe I have not found my love yet until I cn afford to control who to like or not. Haih. My love better be good coz Im not choosing you man. You are the one who will choose me. Hahahaha...
Haih. The point is.... Maaflah. berkias pulak. haha.. ha! the point is... the power is in your hands. Pilihlah Celcom.... Tak. Ni pon salah. ha... maka the power is in your hands. You hold the key to your own happiness.. Dont fall for boys just because you want to or you have to. You will found one yourself. Its there. I think what I do best is leave and move on. Nobody can change you except yourself.
The part of my life with ****** is the worst I think. But nothing better than moving on and finally see that their life is a total mess while you are now happy being alone... What I can say that my life before was a mistake. I fall for people just because I allow myself and just because I wanted someone. But that doesnt work. In the end you are carrying the pain. Theres no point. My endless list of scandals.... I think I can erase that already. They are nothing except stupid mistake. What happened to them now?? hahaha... none of them are useful. They lead their own lives like they always do. Selfish. Heh...
Maka dont let yourself fall for something uncertain. Long way to go. And you better keep things interesting between you guys if you are together now because you got more to come. Nanti nak kahwin lagi... I will definitely wait until da graduate to have someone then kahwin terus. Sebab Im afraid I got bored of them. Hahaha.. keji aku tau.....
Merdeka
Here goes another year of independence. I dont know why makin lama i notice that it is just a mere celebration and a waste of money. I understand it should be celebrated. Sebab... kite merdeka la or whatever. heh. But btol ke we are now independent?? OK. Im not going to start dragging and include all the things that I learned in class. I'll save that only for exams. haha.. tak perlu la repeat banyak kali kan. haih..
I dont understand why we cant have a simple celebration that cost less and does not involve the waste of time of people dancing around and their energy. Fine. Do the concert thing you want on the eve of merdeka. The next morning just a simple speech on air should be enough i think. what more dengan bulan puasa nye tahun ni. haih....
and the bangang part of it, it is just the same every year. the same words formation, marching, helicopter here and there... heh. tak bosan ke. cuba la spend time and think about other masalah negara rather than humiliating yourself tertido on stage di saat benda tu live on air satu malaysia kan. heh..
whatever it is... merdeka semakin hambar di saat semakin banyak benda yang obviously menunjukkan ketidak-merdekaan-nye malaysia ini. heh. balik tido lagi baik.
I dont understand why we cant have a simple celebration that cost less and does not involve the waste of time of people dancing around and their energy. Fine. Do the concert thing you want on the eve of merdeka. The next morning just a simple speech on air should be enough i think. what more dengan bulan puasa nye tahun ni. haih....
and the bangang part of it, it is just the same every year. the same words formation, marching, helicopter here and there... heh. tak bosan ke. cuba la spend time and think about other masalah negara rather than humiliating yourself tertido on stage di saat benda tu live on air satu malaysia kan. heh..
whatever it is... merdeka semakin hambar di saat semakin banyak benda yang obviously menunjukkan ketidak-merdekaan-nye malaysia ini. heh. balik tido lagi baik.
Pain.
What would you do or think when the doctor said, "Bring him back home, give him whatever he wants to eat and just wait until he reach his time" I could not possibly think what would I do. Jauh sekali to actually sit and think about it. But that is what some of us have to face. We have to actually face this person that we love, look at him or her everyday thinking that they are going soon. I wonder which one hurt more. Either the one we love just went off suddenly or seeing them everyday and see how they spend their last days....
I think both are equally the same. Except when you know they are going, you can at least treat them nicely or do whatever that you've never do to them before. That is the thing I regret. At least when you know, you give them everything you can give and by the time they go, you know that's the best for them as they suffer enough.. You know you have no regret of letting them go. You give and get all the love you want as its the last days.. Haih. But these things are never easy and in the end you'll always feel like you're not prepare to lose them. What can I say...
This disease slowly take away one by one. Some of them the people I love and others might be the one you love. I never even bother to know what 'this' is before. I know it is something dangerous as there are possibilities that you might not survive and you can die. Sah sah la kan. But I never care. I know few people in my family has this before but I can see they still manage to live and be happy. However, few years back... something happened and make me realise how dangerous 'this' can be. My friend's mum died because of 'this'.................
It is not the fact that she died that makes me realise the danger of 'this'. But it is because I went to see her mother everyday at the hospital and you can actually feel the pain. You can see the pain she has to suffer. I can say her mother is a very strong lady. She manage to hold on for years.... and I really mean years... I think for around 8 years. For someone who suffer 'this' at stage 3 in the beginning, you could imagine how strong she was. I think she stayed on for her kids. For my friend. She went from someone with a strong body that in the end only left bones. You can see the changes. Day by day... she's getting thinner.... haish..
From that point, I realised that if you are ignorant, you could be one of the victim and worst of all the chances of living is not that high. Thanks to none other than our very famous disease...
CANCER
From that point onwards, I started to learn more on cancer. The stages, possible victim, things you should do, what you could do to help... Now cancer is something common. And I mean in my family. One by one... my grandfather died of cancer. Now my uncle is also one of time. But fortunately it is still in the early stage. The latest news I heard, my granduncle is now a stage 3. I dont know exactly what cancer. The doctor said its not even 50-50 that he'll survive. He will not. You cant even operate him because.... da teruk la. No point.
Haih.. You know.... When you've been there with the people who have cancer... You'll then know how painful it is. One of my classmate's dad is also stage 3 of cancer. The doctor gave him less than 3 months. And I'm not saying that the doctors are bad for being such a pessimist. I know. It wont take you long when your cancer has reach that level. Seriously nothing can be done except you wait and see............
I think both are equally the same. Except when you know they are going, you can at least treat them nicely or do whatever that you've never do to them before. That is the thing I regret. At least when you know, you give them everything you can give and by the time they go, you know that's the best for them as they suffer enough.. You know you have no regret of letting them go. You give and get all the love you want as its the last days.. Haih. But these things are never easy and in the end you'll always feel like you're not prepare to lose them. What can I say...
This disease slowly take away one by one. Some of them the people I love and others might be the one you love. I never even bother to know what 'this' is before. I know it is something dangerous as there are possibilities that you might not survive and you can die. Sah sah la kan. But I never care. I know few people in my family has this before but I can see they still manage to live and be happy. However, few years back... something happened and make me realise how dangerous 'this' can be. My friend's mum died because of 'this'.................
It is not the fact that she died that makes me realise the danger of 'this'. But it is because I went to see her mother everyday at the hospital and you can actually feel the pain. You can see the pain she has to suffer. I can say her mother is a very strong lady. She manage to hold on for years.... and I really mean years... I think for around 8 years. For someone who suffer 'this' at stage 3 in the beginning, you could imagine how strong she was. I think she stayed on for her kids. For my friend. She went from someone with a strong body that in the end only left bones. You can see the changes. Day by day... she's getting thinner.... haish..
From that point, I realised that if you are ignorant, you could be one of the victim and worst of all the chances of living is not that high. Thanks to none other than our very famous disease...
CANCER
From that point onwards, I started to learn more on cancer. The stages, possible victim, things you should do, what you could do to help... Now cancer is something common. And I mean in my family. One by one... my grandfather died of cancer. Now my uncle is also one of time. But fortunately it is still in the early stage. The latest news I heard, my granduncle is now a stage 3. I dont know exactly what cancer. The doctor said its not even 50-50 that he'll survive. He will not. You cant even operate him because.... da teruk la. No point.
Haih.. You know.... When you've been there with the people who have cancer... You'll then know how painful it is. One of my classmate's dad is also stage 3 of cancer. The doctor gave him less than 3 months. And I'm not saying that the doctors are bad for being such a pessimist. I know. It wont take you long when your cancer has reach that level. Seriously nothing can be done except you wait and see............
Piza
Hehe ok2.. Trimas2.. Baeklah saya harus berkandar dahulu eh..
Berkandar?! Ape aku merepek ni? Hah papelah aku tdo dlu eh..
hehe papai bff!
1 simple message that make me smile all night long. Haha~ maybe die ni da mabuk makan pizza kot. Biar je la~~
Berkandar?! Ape aku merepek ni? Hah papelah aku tdo dlu eh..
hehe papai bff!
1 simple message that make me smile all night long. Haha~ maybe die ni da mabuk makan pizza kot. Biar je la~~
Monday, November 29, 2010
We Cry (The Script)
1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say->All American Girl (Carrie Underwood)
2. How would you describe yourself? -> Soulmate (Natasha Bedingfield)
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?-> Bad Day (Daniel Powter)
4. How do you feel today?-> Knock you down (keri Hilson)
5. What is your life’s purpose?-> No One (Alicia Keys)
6. What's your motto? -> One Step at a Time (Jordin Sparks)
7. What do your friends think of you? -> If it makes You Happy (Sheryl Crow)
8. What do you think of your parents? -> Love Like This (Natasha Bedingfield)
9. What do you think about very often?-> I will Be (Avril Lavigne)
10. What is 2 + 2? -> Cry (Rihanna)
11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?-> World Of our Own (Westlife)
12. What do you think of the person you like?-> Heartless (Kanye West)
13. What is your life story?-> Good girl Gone Bad (Rihanna)
14. What do you want to be when you grow up? -> Airplanes (B.O.B)
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?-> Won't Go Home Without You (Maroon 5)
16. What will you dance to at your wedding? -> Scream (Chris Cornell)
17. What will they play at your funeral?-> Home Sweet Home (Carrie Underwood)
18. What is your biggest fear?-> I'll Be There For You (The rembrandts)
19. What is your biggest secret?-> Whenever You Remember (Carrie Underwood)
20. What will you post this as?-> We Cry (The Script)
*seems like fun. so I tried it out. method i used was to see the next song on my music player when the option is on shuffle..
I LOVE NUMBER 11 and i DO live by number 6 and number 17 was just freaky :)
2. How would you describe yourself? -> Soulmate (Natasha Bedingfield)
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?-> Bad Day (Daniel Powter)
4. How do you feel today?-> Knock you down (keri Hilson)
5. What is your life’s purpose?-> No One (Alicia Keys)
6. What's your motto? -> One Step at a Time (Jordin Sparks)
7. What do your friends think of you? -> If it makes You Happy (Sheryl Crow)
8. What do you think of your parents? -> Love Like This (Natasha Bedingfield)
9. What do you think about very often?-> I will Be (Avril Lavigne)
10. What is 2 + 2? -> Cry (Rihanna)
11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?-> World Of our Own (Westlife)
12. What do you think of the person you like?-> Heartless (Kanye West)
13. What is your life story?-> Good girl Gone Bad (Rihanna)
14. What do you want to be when you grow up? -> Airplanes (B.O.B)
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?-> Won't Go Home Without You (Maroon 5)
16. What will you dance to at your wedding? -> Scream (Chris Cornell)
17. What will they play at your funeral?-> Home Sweet Home (Carrie Underwood)
18. What is your biggest fear?-> I'll Be There For You (The rembrandts)
19. What is your biggest secret?-> Whenever You Remember (Carrie Underwood)
20. What will you post this as?-> We Cry (The Script)
*seems like fun. so I tried it out. method i used was to see the next song on my music player when the option is on shuffle..
I LOVE NUMBER 11 and i DO live by number 6 and number 17 was just freaky :)
Friday, November 26, 2010
Raju tak halal??
Tak tau btol tak.... hurm..
PETALING JAYA - Sebuah restoran bukan Islam di Jalan Gasing di sini diserbu Jabatan Kemajuan Islam Malaysia (Jakim) semalam setelah mendapati logo halal pada papan tanda yang dipasang bukan milik restoran tersebut.
Restoran yang sentiasa mendapat sambutan ramai diserbu lapan penguat kuasa Bahagian Hub Halal Jakim dengan kerjasama Pejabat Perdagangan Dalam Negeri, Koperasi dan Kepenggunaan negeri semalam.
"Serbuan dibuat setelah kami menerima aduan daripada orang ramai yang meragui status halal restoran tersebut..
"Bila ditanya kenapa letak logo halal pada papan tanda, mereka mengatakan logo tersebut adalah milik produk yang menaja papan tanda tersebut," kata Penolong Pengarah Cawangan Pemantauan dan Penguatkuasaan Bahagian Hub Halal Jakim, Mohd. Amri Abdullah.
kosmo.
Rukun negara
Baru perasan few years ago was the last time I said. Im sure by now orang dah masuk universiti dah lupa rukun negara. Just a reminder though nothing significant about it.
Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan
Kesetiaan kepada raja dan negara
Keluhuran perlembagaan
Kedaulatan undang-undang
Kesopanan dan kesusilaan.
Kepercayaan kepada Tuhan
Kesetiaan kepada raja dan negara
Keluhuran perlembagaan
Kedaulatan undang-undang
Kesopanan dan kesusilaan.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Im not missing you stranger.
I was cleaning up my room when I found my diary since Im in form 1 till the beginning of Gombak. There were few papers in there with notes written when I was in matrix. When I read it few days ago I realized how much you've changed.
I dont know what to expect from you. you are just different. I appreciate our friendship before. but it wasnt me who left you. It was you who decided to go to someone else. that was the past. I dont expect the same in the future. So dont act and make stories as if you know me. You dont know me. Not now, not before this and never will in the future. I am not who you think I am. (Im SUPERMAN!!!. OK. tak kelakar)
Therefore my friend, (friend ke?) thanks for the memories even though it werent so great, but Im not indulging for worst in the future and Im not missing you. hehe~
I dont know what to expect from you. you are just different. I appreciate our friendship before. but it wasnt me who left you. It was you who decided to go to someone else. that was the past. I dont expect the same in the future. So dont act and make stories as if you know me. You dont know me. Not now, not before this and never will in the future. I am not who you think I am. (Im SUPERMAN!!!. OK. tak kelakar)
Therefore my friend, (friend ke?) thanks for the memories even though it werent so great, but Im not indulging for worst in the future and Im not missing you. hehe~
hanging by a moment- (this is fun!)
1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say-> when i dream at night-marc anthony
2. How would you describe yourself? -> mana mungkin-dayang nurfaizah
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?-> hati ini-nabil
4. How do you feel today?-> away from the sun-three doors down
5. What is your life’s purpose?-> selalu mengalah...??? heh.- seventeen
6. What's your motto? -> lucky-jason mraz
7. What do your friends think of you? -> bob bop baby-westlife??
8. What do you think of your parents? -> kenapa-shazzy feat lah ve
9. What do you think about very often?-> the little things-colbie calliat
10. What is 2 + 2? -> i want it that way-backstreet boys
11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?-> please dont go-boys to men
12. What do you think of the person you like?-> you and your hand-pink
13. What is your life story?-> you and i both-jason mraz
14. What do you want to be when you grow up? -> king of anything-sara baraellis
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?-> everybody-backstreet boys
16. What will you dance to at your wedding? -> 4 minutes-jt, madonna
17. What will they play at your funeral?-> wake up-three days grace
18. What is your biggest fear?-> show me the meaning of being lonely-backstreet boys
19. What is your biggest secret?-> its not my time- three doors down
20. What will you post this as?-> hanging by a moment-lifehouse
2. How would you describe yourself? -> mana mungkin-dayang nurfaizah
3. What do you like in a guy/girl?-> hati ini-nabil
4. How do you feel today?-> away from the sun-three doors down
5. What is your life’s purpose?-> selalu mengalah...??? heh.- seventeen
6. What's your motto? -> lucky-jason mraz
7. What do your friends think of you? -> bob bop baby-westlife??
8. What do you think of your parents? -> kenapa-shazzy feat lah ve
9. What do you think about very often?-> the little things-colbie calliat
10. What is 2 + 2? -> i want it that way-backstreet boys
11. What do you think of your best friend(s)?-> please dont go-boys to men
12. What do you think of the person you like?-> you and your hand-pink
13. What is your life story?-> you and i both-jason mraz
14. What do you want to be when you grow up? -> king of anything-sara baraellis
15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?-> everybody-backstreet boys
16. What will you dance to at your wedding? -> 4 minutes-jt, madonna
17. What will they play at your funeral?-> wake up-three days grace
18. What is your biggest fear?-> show me the meaning of being lonely-backstreet boys
19. What is your biggest secret?-> its not my time- three doors down
20. What will you post this as?-> hanging by a moment-lifehouse
irreplaceable
Life is funny... an irony. i have to admit that i have no regrets about the past or the present. what happened had a reason. and we are not close anymore. but enough for me to appreciate their presence and the friendship more and more.
would i change the sequence of events? yes. but only for it to be cleaner. less hurtful and more gradual. the result was inevitable but it still hurt to be so disposable.
because that was in the past and now this is the present
hmmm...
best couples on the screen
Recently, StarTwo created the best couple on tv shows things. and can you believe it my pick of best couple is the last on the list. so here is my choice. i know. i AM LAME.
1. CHUCK & BLAIR
one would assume this is an obvious choice right? anyway. they exude chemistry. i hated that they are together so early in the series coz eventually they won't last. i love destructive relationships. when they went out to destroy each other, that was GOLD! haha.. and how can you resist the fact that this playboy have managed to fall in love when we thought he never had a heart..
2. HUGH GRANT & JULIA ROBERTS - Notting Hill
The movie nurtured the romantic in me. and granted the story itself is good enough that any other couple would have pulled it off. but we have hugh grant and julia roberts and they were so perfect that the corny final scene did not make me cringe.
3. HARRY POTTER & HERMIONE
J.K Rowling made ron weasley into a wimpy character who whines about the good fortunes of his bestfriend. and made hermione a strong independent woman and expect me to buy into the love between ron & hermione? no where in the BOOK can you read into any romantic feeling between the two! and it correctly translated into the movie.. the fact that hermione is dependable and smart complemented Harry Potter's heroism. SIGH~ their story as i want it to be will only be in my head.
ok so the pictures did not really show the perfect couple that they are. so see the movie. im right :P
4. Barney Stinson & Robin Scherbatsky
they were together briefly in how i met your mother.. i guess they wont work coz barney would cease being a womanizing jackass and thats just not funny..
5. ANGEL & BUFFY
OK FINE I KNOW BOTH SERIES ENDED. But this is what forbidden love looks like. not some lame Twilight couple of agony. they are my first choice had the series still ran. and i know spike was a good match for buffy as cordelia was for angel. but then BUFFY & ANGEL are legendary..
now this is a love story. let me sum up twilight. "i can't be with you because i want to drink your blood and now my vampire clan knows your my girlfriend and wants to kill you because i'm in love with you. so i have to leave you because i love you too much to let them hurt you..."
really? REALLY??? lame lame lame. try this. angel is a vampire and buffy is a vampire slayer. simple enough to spin off a lot of issues. TWILIGHT SUCKS. that said.. edward cullen is HOT. hahaha..
1. CHUCK & BLAIR
one would assume this is an obvious choice right? anyway. they exude chemistry. i hated that they are together so early in the series coz eventually they won't last. i love destructive relationships. when they went out to destroy each other, that was GOLD! haha.. and how can you resist the fact that this playboy have managed to fall in love when we thought he never had a heart..
2. HUGH GRANT & JULIA ROBERTS - Notting Hill
The movie nurtured the romantic in me. and granted the story itself is good enough that any other couple would have pulled it off. but we have hugh grant and julia roberts and they were so perfect that the corny final scene did not make me cringe.
3. HARRY POTTER & HERMIONE
J.K Rowling made ron weasley into a wimpy character who whines about the good fortunes of his bestfriend. and made hermione a strong independent woman and expect me to buy into the love between ron & hermione? no where in the BOOK can you read into any romantic feeling between the two! and it correctly translated into the movie.. the fact that hermione is dependable and smart complemented Harry Potter's heroism. SIGH~ their story as i want it to be will only be in my head.
ok so the pictures did not really show the perfect couple that they are. so see the movie. im right :P
4. Barney Stinson & Robin Scherbatsky
they were together briefly in how i met your mother.. i guess they wont work coz barney would cease being a womanizing jackass and thats just not funny..
5. ANGEL & BUFFY
OK FINE I KNOW BOTH SERIES ENDED. But this is what forbidden love looks like. not some lame Twilight couple of agony. they are my first choice had the series still ran. and i know spike was a good match for buffy as cordelia was for angel. but then BUFFY & ANGEL are legendary..
now this is a love story. let me sum up twilight. "i can't be with you because i want to drink your blood and now my vampire clan knows your my girlfriend and wants to kill you because i'm in love with you. so i have to leave you because i love you too much to let them hurt you..."
really? REALLY??? lame lame lame. try this. angel is a vampire and buffy is a vampire slayer. simple enough to spin off a lot of issues. TWILIGHT SUCKS. that said.. edward cullen is HOT. hahaha..
Monday, November 15, 2010
Sindrom penyakit.
ANDA ADE SINDROM-SINDROM INI???
- jerawat bertambah di muka anda yang licin tu
- anda gagal mengingati hari. cuma ingat tarikh je
- tak mandi/ mandi kambing
- tido tak nyenyak/ terlebih nyenyak
- kurang selera makan/ terasa ingin makan setiap jam
- angin memanjang
- rase semacam/ 'emotional imbalance'
- rasa ingin terjun bangunan???
JANGAN RISAU!!!
anda mungkin terkena penyakit 'finals dah dekat!!!!!' (cakap dengan suara doraemon)
anda hanya perlu minum MAKJUN SRIKANDI FATIMAH!!!
* boleh didapati di toko-toko jamu atau farmasi berhampiran anda.
- jerawat bertambah di muka anda yang licin tu
- anda gagal mengingati hari. cuma ingat tarikh je
- tak mandi/ mandi kambing
- tido tak nyenyak/ terlebih nyenyak
- kurang selera makan/ terasa ingin makan setiap jam
- angin memanjang
- rase semacam/ 'emotional imbalance'
- rasa ingin terjun bangunan???
JANGAN RISAU!!!
anda mungkin terkena penyakit 'finals dah dekat!!!!!' (cakap dengan suara doraemon)
anda hanya perlu minum MAKJUN SRIKANDI FATIMAH!!!
* boleh didapati di toko-toko jamu atau farmasi berhampiran anda.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Kenapa saya tak pegi exam.
Ketika saya sedang mandi di dalam toilet di bilik saya, saya terdengar satu bunyi dentuman yang sangat kuat. Saya sangat terkejut dan takut tetapi saya tidak boleh keluar dari toilet sebab... saya tengah mandi la.. heh. saya terdengar suara yang tidak dikenali. takut saya bukan kepalang lagi... tetapi... ditegaskan saya tengah mandi. dan takkan saya nak keluar dengan hanya memakai baju dan tuala.
Maka saya duduk di dalam toilet dan cuba meneliti bunyi bunyi yang ade... saya terdengar orang menjerit: " EEEWWWWW!!!!!!" "TAK NAK!!!!!!!!!!!!" saya takut lagi. selepas itu saya teringat akan roomate saya betiga orang itu. saya cuak kerana tidak tahu ape yang berlaku dan masa semakin suntuk untuk pegi ke exam. dah la jauh pulak exam tu. buat kat banquet. setelah tidak dapat menunggu lebih lama saya memutuskan untuk keluar dari toilet dan meninjau keadaan di luar. saya pon membuka hengsel pintu itu. (hengsel ke hensel?? tak kesah la..)
alangkah takut nye saya apabila saya mendapati hensel itu tersangkut dan saya tidak dapat membuka pintu shower room saya. saya mula suspens! DAH TAK DE MASA DAH NI!!!! saya fkir benda yang saya dah belajar dengan bertungkus lumus tadi dan juga kertas periksa yang akan saya duduki (tu pon kalau sempat pegi exam la). saya bertambah panik dan risau dan cemas sehingga kan saya berpeluh dingin (dalam toilet pulak kan, sejuk la..)
saya cuba untuk menjerit, tapi malu pulak nak jerit panggil orang masa dalam toilet. ditambah pula saya tidak tahu keadaan orang di luar tu bagaimana... saya cuba lagi... menggunakan segala ilmu yang ade. saya cuba untuk memanjat.... licin pulak.... nak selit bawah pintu.... MEMANG TAK LA! (ingat kau flubber??? heh) setelah agak lama lagi dan tidak kedengaran bunyik bunyi di luar, akhirnye dengan kuasa ajaib setelah puas berjampi pintu tu boleh bukak. saya berasa sangat bangga... hahahaha...
saya 'tip-toe' untuk masuk ke bilik dan meninjau keadaan.... sunyi sepi.... suspens... dub dab. dub dab. dub dab..... saya selak langsir compartment sebelah. tiada orang..... pelik nye. saya pegi compartment saya, selak dengan penuh suspens...... dub dab. dub dab. dub dab....
saya selak....... tiba tiba............... SURPRISE!!! saya gile terkejut yang teramat sangat dan terjatuh pengsan.... adui. malunye... dah la baru mandi..... saya terus tak ingat ape jadi lepas tu.
bile saya bukak mata saya nampak roomate saya memandang saya sambil tersengih. saya lantas bangun dengan pantas nye sebab ade exam!!!!! KAU LUPA?! mereka juga terkejut. kawan saya telah menahan saya dan tunjuk surat mc dari klinik. saya macam...... EH. DAPAT MC. TAK YAH EXAM!!!!!! hehehe..... mereka kate saya pengsan. diorang panggil doktor suruh datang dan die bagi mc sebab dah lambat nak pegi exam.
MAKA............ madam, sebab tu la saya tak pegi exam tadi. bukan sebab saya tak belajar. saya dah baca buku tau! nak buat macam mana.... kuang kuang kuang~~~~
Maka saya duduk di dalam toilet dan cuba meneliti bunyi bunyi yang ade... saya terdengar orang menjerit: " EEEWWWWW!!!!!!" "TAK NAK!!!!!!!!!!!!" saya takut lagi. selepas itu saya teringat akan roomate saya betiga orang itu. saya cuak kerana tidak tahu ape yang berlaku dan masa semakin suntuk untuk pegi ke exam. dah la jauh pulak exam tu. buat kat banquet. setelah tidak dapat menunggu lebih lama saya memutuskan untuk keluar dari toilet dan meninjau keadaan di luar. saya pon membuka hengsel pintu itu. (hengsel ke hensel?? tak kesah la..)
alangkah takut nye saya apabila saya mendapati hensel itu tersangkut dan saya tidak dapat membuka pintu shower room saya. saya mula suspens! DAH TAK DE MASA DAH NI!!!! saya fkir benda yang saya dah belajar dengan bertungkus lumus tadi dan juga kertas periksa yang akan saya duduki (tu pon kalau sempat pegi exam la). saya bertambah panik dan risau dan cemas sehingga kan saya berpeluh dingin (dalam toilet pulak kan, sejuk la..)
saya cuba untuk menjerit, tapi malu pulak nak jerit panggil orang masa dalam toilet. ditambah pula saya tidak tahu keadaan orang di luar tu bagaimana... saya cuba lagi... menggunakan segala ilmu yang ade. saya cuba untuk memanjat.... licin pulak.... nak selit bawah pintu.... MEMANG TAK LA! (ingat kau flubber??? heh) setelah agak lama lagi dan tidak kedengaran bunyik bunyi di luar, akhirnye dengan kuasa ajaib setelah puas berjampi pintu tu boleh bukak. saya berasa sangat bangga... hahahaha...
saya 'tip-toe' untuk masuk ke bilik dan meninjau keadaan.... sunyi sepi.... suspens... dub dab. dub dab. dub dab..... saya selak langsir compartment sebelah. tiada orang..... pelik nye. saya pegi compartment saya, selak dengan penuh suspens...... dub dab. dub dab. dub dab....
saya selak....... tiba tiba............... SURPRISE!!! saya gile terkejut yang teramat sangat dan terjatuh pengsan.... adui. malunye... dah la baru mandi..... saya terus tak ingat ape jadi lepas tu.
bile saya bukak mata saya nampak roomate saya memandang saya sambil tersengih. saya lantas bangun dengan pantas nye sebab ade exam!!!!! KAU LUPA?! mereka juga terkejut. kawan saya telah menahan saya dan tunjuk surat mc dari klinik. saya macam...... EH. DAPAT MC. TAK YAH EXAM!!!!!! hehehe..... mereka kate saya pengsan. diorang panggil doktor suruh datang dan die bagi mc sebab dah lambat nak pegi exam.
MAKA............ madam, sebab tu la saya tak pegi exam tadi. bukan sebab saya tak belajar. saya dah baca buku tau! nak buat macam mana.... kuang kuang kuang~~~~
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Taip kan "ON"
Ingin mendengar suara suara seksi di malam hari??
Atau cerita hantu di malam jumaat??
Taip kan "ON SEKSI" ke 37255 atau "ON HANTU" ke 37643
Atau cerita hantu di malam jumaat??
Taip kan "ON SEKSI" ke 37255 atau "ON HANTU" ke 37643
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