The power is in your hands :P

I've always been a sucker when it comes to boys. You may not know this tapi I can fall for boys easily. As easy as 1,2,3. Hahaha.. ape tu. tak relevan. tak pe. abaikan. Haih.. the point yang cuba disampaikan di sini adalah why I am still macam ni. Macam ni as in why Im not with anyone much as I really want to. Haih..

Let me put this generally... Haih. Susahnye.. I've met lots of people throughout my entire life. Sah sah la there's also the heartbreak kan. Then I come to a conclusion that whatever happens, I am the one responsible. Not them. Not him or her. I cannot blame them for making me fall for them. It is not their fault. It is on my own capacity and awareness that I put myself so low and hurt myself over and over again for them. Now I'm all numb.

If I say that I'm not going to fall for you, then I'm not. No matter how much I actually want to. Even if I'm dying to be with you. But if I think that we cannot go (hahaha..pure pasar) then thats it. I will not let myself be the stupid girl giving her love when I got nothing in return. OR maybe I have not found my love yet until I cn afford to control who to like or not. Haih. My love better be good coz Im not choosing you man. You are the one who will choose me. Hahahaha...

Haih. The point is.... Maaflah. berkias pulak. haha.. ha! the point is... the power is in your hands. Pilihlah Celcom.... Tak. Ni pon salah. ha... maka the power is in your hands. You hold the key to your own happiness.. Dont fall for boys just because you want to or you have to. You will found one yourself. Its there. I think what I do best is leave and move on. Nobody can change you except yourself.

The part of my life with ****** is the worst I think. But nothing better than moving on and finally see that their life is a total mess while you are now happy being alone... What I can say that my life before was a mistake. I fall for people just because I allow myself and just because I wanted someone. But that doesnt work. In the end you are carrying the pain. Theres no point. My endless list of scandals.... I think I can erase that already. They are nothing except stupid mistake. What happened to them now?? hahaha... none of them are useful. They lead their own lives like they always do. Selfish. Heh...

Maka dont let yourself fall for something uncertain. Long way to go. And you better keep things interesting between you guys if you are together now because you got more to come. Nanti nak kahwin lagi... I will definitely wait until da graduate to have someone then kahwin terus. Sebab Im afraid I got bored of them. Hahaha.. keji aku tau.....